Depression: Difference between revisions

==Observations==

I used to deal with severe depression. It would interfere with my work. I didn’t want to eat or drink. I would, instead, focus on computer games or the internet to distract myself. I was very lonely. I moved around a lot as a child, resulting in never really having a social group. All of my social connections were temporary social straight lines, not social circles. As I got older, I tended to have a lot of long distance relationships. This seemed to help my loneliness issue sometimes, in the short term, but exacerbate it in the long term. I wasn’t getting the social connection that I needed. I didn’t know how needs functioned, but the problem was getting worse and I could feel it. I hated it. I hated everything about feeling lonely and depressed all of the time. I burnt out of programming. I couldn’t be motivated.

After I discovered body communication, I eventually started using it enough to take care of all my major bodily needs. The ignoring of those bodily needs turned out to be the real source of my depression. When those needs were well taken care of, depression became far less frequent. I was getting enough water, eating exactly what my body wanted me to eat, I was sleeping very well at the same time every night, and my body was encouraging me to work out. I had even found solutions for my social issues. All of that was great, and it solved the greatest part of my depression and loneliness: the bodily needs that were causing them. There was, however, another aspect to my depression.

I still dealt with my depression sometimes, but it was different. It wasn’t triggered by bodily needs anymore. Instead, it was triggered by thought patterns and learned behaviors. I had spent so much time depressed that one of my modes of behavior was depression. I didn’t fix this problem. I didn’t even recognize it as a problem to be fixed. Instead, my body took action to fix it for me.