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<b>Needs</b> are your body's current behavioral priorities, usually for self-care purposes. However, there are a lot of nuances to how they function | <b>Needs</b> are your body's current behavioral priorities, usually for self-care purposes. However, there are a lot of nuances to how they function and how they are generated. You can use that information to more easily identify needs and take care of them, before they are likely to cause issues. | ||
==Making Querying Easier== | ==Making Querying Easier== | ||
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==The Source of Needs== | ==The Source of Needs== | ||
Everyone knows that their body needs food to live. We need air. We need water. Seeking out nourishment to fulfill bodily needs is the basic behavior that keeps us alive. Medical research has found the parts to the systems that keep us going, from the largest organ in the human body to the smallest organelle in a human cell. However, consciousness itself is still a mystery. This | Everyone knows that their body needs food to live. We need air. We need water. Seeking out nourishment to fulfill bodily needs is the basic behavior that keeps us alive. Medical research has found the parts to the systems that keep us going, from the largest organ in the human body to the smallest organelle in a human cell. However, consciousness itself is still a mystery. This website does not answer that mystery. I am just as confused about that as everyone else. Perhaps even more so because body communication has made me aware of one more piece in the puzzle of consciousness. | ||
===Initial Assumption=== | ===Initial Assumption=== | ||
When I first discovered body communication, I thought that I was sending requests for information to a biological machine | When I first discovered body communication, I thought that I was sending requests for information to a biological machine: my body. I thought that I was getting responses to those requests from my body, as a biological machine. However, some observations didn’t add up. Occasionally, my body would communicate that it had a need, but the responses when trying to determine that need would exclude everything. Then the responses would weaken, and in some situations even go offline for a while, hardly responding at all. It was as if my body was confused or disagreeing with itself. If it’s a machine, why would my body express confusion when asked about some of its own needs? If it’s a machine, why would my body disagree with itself? | ||
Some dreams convey needs. A need-based dream that I had showed a situation I was in as a child from the perspective of me as the abuser and my body as the abused. When I asked my body about it, my body wanted to cry. I did not want to cry or see a reason to cry, but my body did. It turned out that my body wanted an apology from me. It wanted remorse. When my body received that remorse, it let the issue go and the need to cry stopped. If my body is just a machine, how could it feel trauma, remember trauma, and express trauma from situations that I was personally completely fine in and had no issues with? Why would my body need me to apologize? Why would it react to me apologizing? Machines don’t want apologies, nor do they care about or react to apologies. I came to the realization that there is more to the human body than I had first thought. It appeared to be a separately conscious entity. I was closer to seeing what was going on, but I wasn’t even close to the full picture. | Some dreams convey needs. A need-based dream that I had showed a situation I was in as a child from the perspective of me as the abuser and my body as the abused. When I asked my body about it, my body wanted to cry. I did not want to cry or see a reason to cry, but my body did. It turned out that my body wanted an apology from me. It wanted remorse. When my body received that remorse, it let the issue go and the need to cry stopped. If my body is just a machine, how could it feel trauma, remember trauma, and express trauma from situations that I was personally completely fine in and had no issues with? Why would my body need me to apologize? Why would it react to me apologizing? Machines don’t want apologies, nor do they care about or react to apologies. I came to the realization that there is more to the human body than I had first thought. It appeared to be a separately conscious entity. I was closer to seeing what was going on, but I wasn’t even close to the full picture. | ||
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It took a while to adjust to. It’s easy to work with the idea of sending requests to a machine that you live in. Everyone is so used to working with machines that that’s normal these days. After that assumption was dashed, it was still easy to work with the idea of asking questions to a separately conscious body that I live in and cooperate with. Cooperating with another person is something that most people are pretty used to. This, however, was well beyond that. I was dealing with the idea that not only do I live among a vast, conscious population in my own body, but I was simultaneously dealing with the realization that I am made of a vast, conscious population myself. It’s a bit much adjusting to the concept of being made up of entities that you do not know; literally made-up by entities that you do not know. Talk about being late to the party and socially awkward about it. I avoided most of the population for the longest time after this realization, not knowing how to even go about working with a large population. | It took a while to adjust to. It’s easy to work with the idea of sending requests to a machine that you live in. Everyone is so used to working with machines that that’s normal these days. After that assumption was dashed, it was still easy to work with the idea of asking questions to a separately conscious body that I live in and cooperate with. Cooperating with another person is something that most people are pretty used to. This, however, was well beyond that. I was dealing with the idea that not only do I live among a vast, conscious population in my own body, but I was simultaneously dealing with the realization that I am made of a vast, conscious population myself. It’s a bit much adjusting to the concept of being made up of entities that you do not know; literally made-up by entities that you do not know. Talk about being late to the party and socially awkward about it. I avoided most of the population for the longest time after this realization, not knowing how to even go about working with a large population. | ||
It’s one thing to know that you’re made of around thirty trillion living cells that you can only see under a microscope. It’s another to be able to meet conscious entities that live in your brain, help you live, and oh yeah, some of them are parts of you that are working together to be you reading this | It’s one thing to know that you’re made of around thirty trillion living cells that you can only see under a microscope. It’s another to be able to meet conscious entities that live in your brain, help you live, and oh yeah, some of them are parts of you that are working together to be you reading this website right now. It’s mind boggling. For me, it was so unexpected and so, so weird. | ||
==The Purposes of Needs== | ==The Purposes of Needs== | ||
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==Existential Issues== | ==Existential Issues== | ||
{{Warning |heading=Warning |align=left |This section is, by far, the most important warning in this entire | {{Warning |heading=Warning |align=left |This section is, by far, the most important warning in this entire website. Please, do not skip it.}} | ||
Free will is an important aspect of human life. Your wants are your wants and your choices are yours to make. However, there is a multitude of sentient beings that make up and/or influence your likes, choices, and everything that you think and do. This calls free will and personal identity into question. Those, however, are abstract concepts. Let’s get practical. | Free will is an important aspect of human life. Your wants are your wants and your choices are yours to make. However, there is a multitude of sentient beings that make up and/or influence your likes, choices, and everything that you think and do. This calls free will and personal identity into question. Those, however, are abstract concepts. Let’s get practical. | ||
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In later chapters, you will learn that by communicating with my body, I gave it the power to block off and effectively remove the behavior patterns and remembered feelings associated with depression and loneliness. The source of my depression, a decade ago, was starved bodily needs. I fixed that myself through using body communication to know what I need and care for myself, preventing that form of depression. I was doing something good for myself. I was actively working to better my life, and it worked. Those were my actions, though. I was still occasionally depressed after that, simply because I occasionally fell back into my depressive memories and behavior patterns. I had grown up feeling that way, so it was easy to be that way, even if there was no biological cause at the time. My body didn’t like that, so it took its own actions to get rid of the rest of my depression. My body blocked off my ability to remember feelings of depression or access depression-related thought patterns or behavior patterns. My body used an aversion to prevent memory and behavior pattern access. Those aversions last months, and by the time they are over, what was blocked off is, for all practical purposes, inaccessible. It’s effectively no longer there at all. | In later chapters, you will learn that by communicating with my body, I gave it the power to block off and effectively remove the behavior patterns and remembered feelings associated with depression and loneliness. The source of my depression, a decade ago, was starved bodily needs. I fixed that myself through using body communication to know what I need and care for myself, preventing that form of depression. I was doing something good for myself. I was actively working to better my life, and it worked. Those were my actions, though. I was still occasionally depressed after that, simply because I occasionally fell back into my depressive memories and behavior patterns. I had grown up feeling that way, so it was easy to be that way, even if there was no biological cause at the time. My body didn’t like that, so it took its own actions to get rid of the rest of my depression. My body blocked off my ability to remember feelings of depression or access depression-related thought patterns or behavior patterns. My body used an aversion to prevent memory and behavior pattern access. Those aversions last months, and by the time they are over, what was blocked off is, for all practical purposes, inaccessible. It’s effectively no longer there at all. | ||
That was my body choosing to remove part of what I felt defined me. I could no longer relate to | That was my body choosing to remove part of what I felt defined me. I could no longer relate to others that deal with depression because I couldn’t even remember what depression felt like. This was very good for my mental health. However, that didn’t matter to me nearly as much when it first happened. Feelings and memories were taken from me without my knowledge or consent. I had no agency, no awareness that it was about to happen, and no choice in the process. It was permanent. I went through feelings of loss and existential dread the day that this happened. It was not pleasant. I was mostly over the dread the next day, but it was still concerning. Years later, nothing has changed. That part of me is still gone. There was no choice, and there is no undo button. | ||
Another change that I experienced, and had no choice in, was to my sexuality. That isn’t supposed to be possible, but it happened. I was shocked by the change, but as I am not bigoted, I wasn’t against the change itself. I was, however, existentially shattered for a few weeks. I was rapidly changing in many ways. My body greatly reduced the amount of meat that I needed to eat, so I lost that, and I lost my sexuality. I knew how much I was changing, and I had no idea what change I would notice next. Most of the changes were internal though, so they didn’t directly affect my life. But what would be the next change to my personal identity? How was I supposed to relate to others if I could be a completely different person an hour after I share anything about myself? This still concerns me. | Another change that I experienced, and had no choice in, was to my sexuality. That isn’t supposed to be possible, but it happened. I was shocked by the change, but as I am not bigoted, I wasn’t against the change itself. I was, however, existentially shattered for a few weeks. I was rapidly changing in many ways. My body greatly reduced the amount of meat that I needed to eat, so I lost that, and I lost my sexuality. I knew how much I was changing, and I had no idea what change I would notice next. Most of the changes were internal though, so they didn’t directly affect my life. But what would be the next change to my personal identity? How was I supposed to relate to others if I could be a completely different person an hour after I share anything about myself? This still concerns me. |